Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Do you think you'll still be blogging 10 years from now?

10 years? I'll be lucky if I'm blogging for the next one year. No, this is not be being pessimistic. I just don't get carried away. I don't believe in forevers and 10 years is a life time. I don't know if I'll be writing. 10 years from now, my life is obviously going to be so different. My only real expectation from myself 10 years is to have a bookshelf and a dog. Really. That's all I expect from myself. I don't know about my job, writing, I don't know what I'll be doing with my life and really its okay, not like I've aced at the planned stuff.

10 years from now, I want to say I'll be blogging. Stomp my feet and storm out of a virtual room because obviously HOW CAN YOU ASK ME SUCH A QUESTION?! But the truth is, I'm as random as they come. One day I'm pouring my heart out on this blog, the next day you know I've stopped writing for a year. (2011, 4 posts) a testament to how little or how much I can write (25 posts in December).

10 years from now a lot of who I am is going to be different. I'm not the same person as I was when I was 14, I won't be the same when I'm 34. You know what I wanted when I was 14? Getting the hell out of school so I wouldn't have to study. You know for how many years I've had to study after school, almost 8 years and it's still not over. I wanted nothing more than to get out of school. When I'm 34, I'll be very happy if I've survived society and half as free spirited as I am today. (Dear future self, please be cool.)

So I don't have a stomp my feet walk out of the room conviction that I'll be blogging, but I know I'll be writing. I know on quiet nights, when the world is asleep, I'll pull out my book and start scribbling. I'll probably think of this very moment, smile a little and then write some. But I'll be around words. I want to be. But then K sera sera. I don't talk about 2 days from now, it's too much to expect Maggie Lawate to say anything about 10 years.

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